Few more days

I'm leaving here, a week more maybe.
It's a beautiful place to study. 
I love everything here.
I love every time I opened my door. I could see green. smell the freshness of the air. You actually could smell the green. *sniff* aaahhhh~ 
I'm definitely going to miss this place. 
Going back to the city, full of fumes and smoke. 
No more fresh air. 

tomorrow is my last paper. but I still have things to do. Going to be busy anyway. 
bye~

A piece of my mind

I wish I knew.
I knew everything.
but this is life. 
Life full of surprises and mysteries.

It's impossible for you to know.
At least I know that I am.

At times I just so effing tired and wanted to stop.
I couldn't.
They doesn't let me.
Even how hard I tell myself to stop.
I couldn't... wouldn't...

Ada masanya

... saya lupa

aku bukan saya punya.

dan selamanya bukan hak milik saya.

tapi kadang-kadang kita lupa. 

dan saya harap saya ingat selepas ini.

dia bukan milik saya...

Gone

I know it's been awhile I haven't update this blog.
I don't the heart and time to update it anyway.

si pakcik tu asyik tanya; "bila awak nak update blog? dah sebulan dah."
haih~ ce kau ada blog. tengok! bila kau nak update?

A lot things happened.

but then, I'm afraid to start my new phase of life. working life.
dah la aku ni socially awkward. ni pulak nak start kerja. memang la suka adventure. 
lepas dah abes intern ni nanti start kerja. REAL WORLD!
and then nak kene paralel with my mission and vision of my life, to give back to the community. entah tercapai ke dak impian tu. 

lepas tu, nanti orang sibuk tanya pasal kahwin pulak. 
plus, dah la ramai kawan dah start kawen, anak dah 1-3 bagai. erk.

haih~
esok ada paper. 4th paper.
one more to go. dengan competition lagi nih. pening wei pening! claim ni tak siap lagi!

ps: kalau dah takut dengan real world, sambung study je lah. hahahaha~

...

ye. masih wujud.

tadi ada mood. sekarang dah takde.

bye.

Berhabuk wei!

bhahaha. memang takde masa,
dan dah takde mood nak tulis ape2.
tapi tak busy pun sem ni. depress pasal hape benda tah.
even dekat private blog pun tak update pape.
kot. 
tak sure.
kena check.
bhahaha.
ok.
bye.
tu je.
oh.
tu je.
oh!
cari tempat praktikal, tak kesah nak accenture juga.

Games

I've been away because it's holiday. and blogger sucks I can't upload pictures because told me already over capacity! going back to the jungle in a week! :D

I'm not a gamer or hardcore gamer. I play games. Girls games. I don't play those War Craft or DOTA or addicted to it. I'm playing tetris and sims social on facebook. That's it.

It's a norm during my diploma days that I play tons of games. Never ending! and every evening. Even my room mate would freak out if every evening I don't face my laptop and play any game. She would ask me; "eh? fiqa tak main game harini? kenapa?" 

I grew up with games. My siblings loves to play games. any kind. 

Games for me is a leisure time. 

When I need to take things off my head. 

to challenge myself.

to let out my anger (helped a little bit)

sometimes I think the only thing that I'm good at is playing games.

playing games feels like no pressure. I don't have to open up books or research. I'm playing it for fun.

so, does this really bothers you?

does this really that bad for me? 

well, if you can't accept me that I like to play games, I think you should tell me and should stop from this.
you think that is an obligation for you to change the way I am.

you should find someone else. 

It's hard for me to let you go. 

but if you acting like this. 

or pushing me this way. 

I think you have problem with me.

maybe you hates me.

maybe I should stay away from you.

maybe we aren't supposed to be together.

hmph. I should continue playing my games. bye! :D

What if...

... we both just friends

... I didn't do the prank

... I didn't interfere you and her

yes. I'm home for a month and I think I won't be updating much, as I done nothing. bhahaha~ 

ok. bye~