Tuesday, December 30, 2014

Life is wonderful and magical

Hey guys, 

I'm feeling like writing my heart out. I'm not an awesome writer or even good grammar, as people may know why I have blog so I could put everything in here so I could put them and bury them as memories. The happy ones and the bad ones too. 

I'm watching The Fault in Our Stars and I'm crying non -stop for no reason. It make me thinking about life so much. I learn from my mistakes, but.. there are things that I took things for granted. Life. My life. 

Let me tell you something, 
The moment that I know you. I know you will be a huge mistake. Like Taylor Swift, I know. Cliche. I know that we won't be together, but I guess why I stayed because I hate to be awkward around friends. Because I couldn't find other group of friends to hang out with. You took something from me I hate you for it. I blame you for it. I guess it was the test and I FAILED miserably. 

I want it to end. End it now. As you wrote to the future me. The difference it, you will see the ghost. 

I'm strong, beautiful and optimistic. I know that I can do it! 

The End.l

Sunday, December 7, 2014

My Birthday Celebration!

I would never thought that this year birthday would be awesome!

My normal birthday every year, would be wish on Facebook because they could see who's birthday today. Few years later, I hide the notification and see how many people would remembers my birthday. It would a few those who really close to me. and the day goes like that, nothing happened. Normal as they goes. and usually I won't be home during my birthday coz I'm in campus. 

The thing about me, it would be hard to do a surprise to me, because I notices everything. But I appreciated the effort :D

This two cakes are from Kinat, she said because for 3 years we celebrate both birthday at the same time, so this cake is for Semah and Me. :)

This cake is from my sister kinda of cake from my family :)

This is birthday feast at Murni Discovery with my lil sister :D

This is birthday card from my department with signatures from the top position of the office :D

 This is another cake from another job!

 Michelle gave this one! :3

 Hui Shan and Wen Yi

Birthday treat! A fancy one but I love it! super delicious!

I'm so lucky to be surrounded with awesome and great people like all of you. Thank you so much to celebrate my birthday! I'm so grateful, Alhamdulillah. :) 

Thank you for always being there when I needed you guys! :')

Bonus! Click more for link to my YouTube Channel!

Sunday, November 16, 2014

My Own YouTube Channel

As few of close friends of mine knew that now I have my own youtube channel. It's a vlog! I wanted to try. Writing a blog is more personal than doing a Youtube. 

I just read my old me writing me a future blog. 
I'm not married, Just started working for bank. 
and no. I won't further my Masters. 
and I still a psychopath. 

But I don't want to write anymore. I don't have the time. And do not want to write it anymore. 

... I do wanted to tell all of you my new Youtube Channel.

Click read more for the link! :D

Saturday, November 15, 2014

Future Afiqah

Dear future Afiqah,

Disebabkan tengok banyak sangat cerita "How I Met Your Mother"
I'm writing a post entry for myself.! hahahaa~

At this time as you are reading,
I wanted you to remember who you are,
don't be cocky or anything,
be strong as you are before

I don't know what you are doing right now,
but I'm hoping you are working in a bank or a huge company
and looking forward to having promotion in the near future! =D
owh! make sure that your salary reached at least 7000. hahaa~ (if you are working)

Hoping that you'll will get married next year! hahahaa~
or already married =D
And don't get any mental illness as you already have back in 2010 =D

If you have bad day/week/year.
Always think positively.
Always remember that Allah is there and always there.

don't forget to further you master! =D
Please write another future post for future you.

As I'm writing,
That day is Sunday; 20 June 2010

Tuesday, July 22, 2014

Growing Up

.. If you watched me grow up, you would be very proud of me. I am proud of myself though! LOL! :D

Some people, their age do increase every year, but they really stayed in their child minds. 

I'm blessed to met a lot of awesome people, giving me so much to think. Opened up to me in your own perspective. Even though, I don't really agree with you guys, I would just listen and trying to understand your perspective. 

Every single day, I met a lot of people. Talking to a lot of people. I feel you bro. :P

I know people would say, you should respect people to earn respect from them... but to get their is very heartbreaking. When you trying to be respectful to them, they don't to you. It hurt so bad.

I glad where ever I am. I learn so much on watching my words. I learn so much on not judging people. I learn not to be negative all the time. I learn not to think the worst thing about others. 

I've grown up. I hope you proud of me. 

Sunday, May 18, 2014

Different People, Different Perspective.

When you see your facebook friends posts pictures of him/her overseas with those branded products. What actually come to your mind?

Some people would say; oh! that is a nice design or good on him/her!
Some people would say; It must be nice to see those places!
Some people would say; you are showing off are you!
Some people would say; He/She would have a very good life, good for him/her.
Some people would say; I'm sick and tired to see all of your picture, I should block/hide/unfriend you!
Some people would say; I hate you *log out*
Some people would say; I want to go there some day.

So, what do you say?

I'll usually scroll down and said "meh"

Friday, April 25, 2014

I'm good...

... at pretending that I'm okay.

The fact that one day I'll find the opportunity to get a revenge. and the fact that it stays in my freakin head. 

"Please don't. Don't it it!" said the nicer part of me. 

.. and when the time comes, the evil part of me will take over automatically. 

Thursday, April 10, 2014

It may or may not came true

When I was a kid, I never bothered what future holds for me. What could wait for me. This actually continue until I end my form 5, before I get my placement in UiTM Johor, getting course that I never heard of. 

Going to university seems a normal thing to do, but a place I could see people with vision and have planned their future and how to get there. I always wasn't that person. When I was a kid, I even thought that I won't live that long to see what future is. Meeting with people and mingling seriously where they told what are the vision and future is, I realised that I can be whatever I wanted if I work for it. 

Later on, I started to fell in love with the subject and knowledge. Furthering my degree and actually finishing it. Growing up from diploma to degree, I have this vision of mine that I want to achieve. When people asks what I wanted to do, I have few of them. Few of paths that I could take. 

Graduating, this unemployment phase, searching for a job is very hard, especially what I wanted. I took up a selling license and got a job offer. Another financial institution. It is not a glamorous job. Still in sales. Which I would never take it seriously at first. When I met other candidates and the employee. Shows that this may be my platform to see how I cope with everything. It may not be my ideal job. Thinking what are my career goals, I started to see what I might be in the future. 

and it was my initial career path that I wanted. Hope this would be the best and I always know that everything happen for a reason. I always discover myself. and I really think I could handle the pressure. :) I'm a very weird person. and I told the interviewer that my future colleague could see me crying probably once a month. bhahaha. 

Till then, see ya later. :)