Me Me Me Me!

well, I miss the green view and fresh air! 
so refreshing!

I'm the city. jungle city.

you know what, I learned more and more about myself. one thing for sure that I just realised.
I'm perform better when I'm in pressure. I'm weird.

and I'm socially awkward. super awkward! hahaha

The other phase of life

it's been a decade that I left this blog. literally.

probably because I have people to talk to. Now, I'm back to my cave and yes, here I am to write about my life. which the most bored things that you want to read. (maybe reverse psychology?)

well, this is my last semester,

INTERNSHIP!

it's not my ideal work that I wanted to work at. It's a at the bank! hahaha! the last place I wanted to be, okay not really. but yeah. I'm internship at a bank at Human Capital Department! "Good Morning, Human Capital Department, how can I help you?" hahaaha. that is what happen when I answer the phone and usually I don't have the answer. hahaha! ok. done laughing.

I just realised that this phase of life is the scariest part of my life. I never worked before all I heard about is the corporate world. but actually SIFE/ENACTUS help me from having culture shock, the organisation itself have helped me to have a peak of the real world. interesting. 

Whenever I said that I'm intern at Human Capital people would expect payroll and stuffs. NOPE! wrong! I'm reviewing policy! and I need to tell you something that I fell in love with the department and the organisation! I'm a person that really fell in love with good things really fast! hahaha! I don't think that I should be in HR reviewing policies because I'm super worried about the worker at the respective countries! hahahhaa! If I'm the decision maker, I'll approve most of the thing.

ps: and the phase that I need to so far away from you. dah nak cari gaduh dengan siapa?

Few more days

I'm leaving here, a week more maybe.
It's a beautiful place to study. 
I love everything here.
I love every time I opened my door. I could see green. smell the freshness of the air. You actually could smell the green. *sniff* aaahhhh~ 
I'm definitely going to miss this place. 
Going back to the city, full of fumes and smoke. 
No more fresh air. 

tomorrow is my last paper. but I still have things to do. Going to be busy anyway. 
bye~

A piece of my mind

I wish I knew.
I knew everything.
but this is life. 
Life full of surprises and mysteries.

It's impossible for you to know.
At least I know that I am.

At times I just so effing tired and wanted to stop.
I couldn't.
They doesn't let me.
Even how hard I tell myself to stop.
I couldn't... wouldn't...

Ada masanya

... saya lupa

aku bukan saya punya.

dan selamanya bukan hak milik saya.

tapi kadang-kadang kita lupa. 

dan saya harap saya ingat selepas ini.

dia bukan milik saya...

Gone

I know it's been awhile I haven't update this blog.
I don't the heart and time to update it anyway.

si pakcik tu asyik tanya; "bila awak nak update blog? dah sebulan dah."
haih~ ce kau ada blog. tengok! bila kau nak update?

A lot things happened.

but then, I'm afraid to start my new phase of life. working life.
dah la aku ni socially awkward. ni pulak nak start kerja. memang la suka adventure. 
lepas dah abes intern ni nanti start kerja. REAL WORLD!
and then nak kene paralel with my mission and vision of my life, to give back to the community. entah tercapai ke dak impian tu. 

lepas tu, nanti orang sibuk tanya pasal kahwin pulak. 
plus, dah la ramai kawan dah start kawen, anak dah 1-3 bagai. erk.

haih~
esok ada paper. 4th paper.
one more to go. dengan competition lagi nih. pening wei pening! claim ni tak siap lagi!

ps: kalau dah takut dengan real world, sambung study je lah. hahahaha~

...

ye. masih wujud.

tadi ada mood. sekarang dah takde.

bye.

Berhabuk wei!

bhahaha. memang takde masa,
dan dah takde mood nak tulis ape2.
tapi tak busy pun sem ni. depress pasal hape benda tah.
even dekat private blog pun tak update pape.
kot. 
tak sure.
kena check.
bhahaha.
ok.
bye.
tu je.
oh.
tu je.
oh!
cari tempat praktikal, tak kesah nak accenture juga.