Random Things inside my head

you used to be my idol. the first moment I know you. all I wanted to turned to is you.
you always be my benchmark in everything.
friendship.studies.everything.
but It's true that no one is perfect.
the more I know you.
the more I saw your flaw.
The more I became more and more disappointed.
I always looked up to you. but now.
all I want is to be myself.

but the problem is,
I don't know what I wanted to be.
I don't know the real me.
I don't know anything about myself.

but I know what I like
what I always hates.
but I still can't figure the real me.
what I always wanted to be.
I can't see far enough who will I become.
but I have a hint.

before,
I always wanted to be looked up to.
people searching for me asking me things.
but now,
I felt like its a huge burden to bare.

sometimes I love the spotlight
sometimes I hate it.
because I'll get cocky and too proud of myself,
and I became more and more B***HY.
I'll be an A**

I'll start to forget
who am I before.

Ps: thank you for following me, the numbers are increasing. wow!
okie I know 34 JER! kecoh.
hahaaa~

Fundamental of Afiqah #3

maybe class will be irregular and on the weekend ya.

ok, today's topic will be about "Changes".

I actually mention it before in my previous post.
But since the main topic is about me,
I'll tell it anyway. ^_^

In every way, we as human nature will have this changes in life right?
In personality especially, when we grow up, when we reach that certain level of age.
*now sounds like high school essay*

I'm changing drastically.
BEFORE I really can't go anywhere without companion of any friends.
I can't make my own decisions.
I can't ask stranger,
I don't really likes to talk
I don't study. and I don't care about it at all.

but NOW, I'm changing, into a new person.
I start to think differently,
I start to care about what others feels,
I start try hard to put myself in their shoes,
but sometimes, I forget who I am before
and what I've become.

Human always forget.
and I do too.
I always forget who am I before came here.
So, people who are called "friends".
please remind me, and when I started to act like an "ASS"
please tell me. That would be appreciated.


Starting my new phases of life which is "Degree".
I'll start thinking to develop a more better me than "Diploma"

so, class today is more about me as always.

CLASS DISMISSED ^_^

Jumaat, takde class

hari ini hari Jumaat,

sebenarnya, dah takde benda nk tulis.
tapi saje mengada2 nk update blog ni.

takde benda menarik berlaku.
serious takde,
class mcm biasa.
exercise @ homework mcm biasa.
setiap minggu ramai balik.
best sgt ke balik rumah?
ok2. best, sbb boleh dwld cerita byk2.
tapi ala. semester ni ada 4 bulan je.
lgipun nanti nk cuti pertengahan semester.
lepak ar beb. hahaa~

test seblum dan selepas cuti berlambak.
dduk cmpus study sudah.

mak kte kata, dia nk dtg sini 1 feb ni.
dia rindu anak dia yg comel ni kot.
tak pun dia nk sound mane letak IC tu.
hahahaa~

tapi hari senin tu byk class.
free pukul 2-4 je.
pastu ada class.
asignment sume berjln dgn lancar. alhamdulillah.
cuma takut test yg akan dtg ni.
(T_T)

dah takde pape nk membebel kat blog ni.
^_^ bye.

Kemangkatan Sultan Johor.

disebabkan kemangkatan sultan Johor Jumaat ke Sabtu?? lepas, kami berkabung. semua pelajar perempuan wajib pakai tudung putih atau hitam (kot). kalu tak kena lecture dgn Pak Unit Keselamatan.

ni dlm class, ummul yg pakaikan pinky ni tudung guna tissue. haha~
dia pun turut berkabung.


ni kucing comel, dduk kt longkang library ngn mak dia. adik dia dah ada org amek kot. sbb adik dia comel jgk!
si kucing ni mengada2. tapi comel. dia pakai scarf. comel kan??!!!
tak nmpk sgt kecomelan dia sbb background hitam. maklum la. tgh buat discussion. hehee~

adakah?!!

huhu~
kenapa sejak kebelakang ni,
rasa mcm laki yg berjanggut n ada misai sikit rasa mcm comel semacam nih??!!
contoh...

DAN JUGA

ada Jensen Ackles and Godfery Gao Yi Xiang.
hohoho~

tidak!!!
saya patutnya suka org yg clean look!!!
tapi rambut pendek still jadi pilihan..

adakah disebabkn abg ku yg berjambang??
atau bapa ku yg ada misai??
hoho~ kenapa??!!!
tapi still suka JENSEN ACKLES!!! hahaa~

ha ah!!! BYRCE LARKIN!!
dia pun ada janggut2 ngn misai sikit2.
hhohohohhhoooo~
dia umor 33 tahun. hurm. still rasa dia hot. hahaa~ matthew bomer. hohoooo~
TIDAK!!!!
hahaa~

ps: kucing hitam tu comel la.. hahaa~

Once upon a time.

There is they mischievous young lady name "Azrina".
she went to class everyday.
this one day. she decided to do this.......




Then, the pink bear. decided to revenge.
so the revenge begins.
he talk the plan though to me.
since I know where azrina's room which in SAB.
He said he will go to her room at nite by using this tools to do what have she done to him.

*he will bring patrick too. coz patrick insist on going*

He(pink bear) asked me to tell azrina that he will come to her room using the window.
but azrina shows no fear. *she must be very prepared*

I don't know the end of the story yet. but MAYBE I'll continue the story if there is an ending.

owh. pink bear, here some advise from me.

"don't you bring that Patrick. we all know what will happen. Ask SpongeBob."

I supposed to update the blog.
but busy with assignment and studies.

STAY TUNED~

*lena, anak kucing ni btul2 makan tikus ni*

Tak Sabar pulak,

sedangkan baru 2 minggu kat campus dah tak sabar nk GRAD!!!!
hehee~

tak sabar kalu ada rezeki dapat gi study kat UUM.
entah kenapa sgt nk gi sana. jadi sumer org mintak tolong doakn utk kte ea!!
tapi takde second plan. huhuhu~
tapi this semester, kte tak suka schedule class kte.
ye la. tetiba tukar,
ada class petang kul 4 ptg.

tapi semester ni lain dari semester sebelum ni,
dulu kte takde buat mcm ni,
tapi AWAL semester rajin pulak.
I'm praying that I will stay the same like this.
motivated and excited.

semlm tdo awal gile!! pukul 9.50 mlm dah tdo!!
lepas tgk "chuck"..
then berharap hari ni tak tdo and study sepnjg hari. (^_^)
tadi dah abes study portfolio. tapi bond dah half way.
malam nanti study teori.
pastu ada la break2, tgk movie ngn makan sume.
then tadi edit2 sket VIVA tu. hee~ kteorg punye hampir siap =P
jgn jeles.

then skrg nk cari bahan utk Futures and Option
class tu. hurm. enthla. I don't get the picture yet.
so, jadi skrg tgh berusaha utk paham ape ke benda tu.
hehe~ excited to futher degree. feeling the "REAL" campus life.

ps: Fundamental of Afiqah #3 is on the way. hehee~ tapi entah bile nk publish. malas la pulak. hehee~

Viva

Sebenarnya,
tgh buat Viva,
tapi jumpa gambar ni, buat kte EXCITED sgt2.

*comel gile kan??!!!*

pastu dalam tgh sibuk2 check pasal negara2 ni (kte dpt second world country)
terdapat byk la conflict. hehee~
China boleh kuarkan fake GDP in 2008!!!
then, Russia dia punye inflation rate in 1993 is 874.62 points!! source click
bygkan!! org lain punye inflation rate dalam belas2 je la.
ni.. 800++??!!! mcm mane la nak hidup kat country tu.
tapi recovering sbb diaorg one of the largest producer in oil.

saje nk kongsi kat korg. simpan sorg2 sebenarnya tak best lah!
oh! kte tak tau pun ada word "hyperinflation"
"hypertension","hypermarket", "hyperactive" kte tau la..

ps: sila tinggalkan comment kat bwh kata anak rimau tu comel sgt~ terima kasih. ^_^

Hari ini hari Selasa

dah tak dapat pikir nk bubuh ape as title.
tapi berazam nk update jgk blog nih.
hehee~

class ada slightly changes dlm jadual.
ada class petang pulak (T_T)
susah sikit nk tumpukn perhatian class petang nih,
sbb tu masuk c3 dgn harapan takde class petang.
class pagi paling best.
hahaa~

tapi nk buat mcm mane,
tapi lecturer sem ni best2.
jadi saya tak kesah la.
cuma, petang tu, susah nk masuk sket.
tapi kene la berusaha kan?

korg nk tau tak!!
bdk2 wing kata kte muka mcm garang je.
rumate kte bgtau. maklum la, rumate kan "wingcapt"
hehee~ dia la bgtau tadi.
dia kata;

husna: akk, akk tau tak, bdk2 wing tu kata akk mcm garang je
fiqa: abeh, yg penat2 senyum kat diaorg tu?
husna: tak waktu meeting wing yg first tu. akk kan senyap je.
fiqa: oh, ahahahaaa~ mcm tu meeting mlm kang. kte ddk kat meja study je la (^_^)

tapi nk maklum la,
mak kte muka lagi garang.
tapi bile dia buat muka serious la. agak menakutkan.
tapi dah 21 tahun menghadap muka mak kte tu.
takde la nmpk garang sgt. tapi kte suka kalu mak kte marah org lain.
tapi bukan family member kte tu, mcm org jual2 ke. marah org lain.
mcm best. hahahaa~

tapi pejam celik.
dah title "AKAK" dah.
huhuhu~
tua. sedangkan azrina, ummul lagi tua!! hahahaa~

Early of this Semester

I'm finding myself obsess on new thing.
still a secret. but if you guys really want to know,
ask me desperately. ^_^

yesterday,
I spend my time reading book that I borrowed from library,
finished one. 2 more to go.
then, today,
mostly online and organized my desk. for future convenient.
oh! kte borak ngn mira sbb dia dpt free call untuk seminggu.

so these are few pictures of things on my desk.
hahaa~

*ni gmbr meja, hahahaaa~*

*ini gmbr patrick yg beli koko crunch dpt free ^_^*

*note tulis utk diri sendiri yg berbunyi :
"fiqah, asyik menghadap laptop jer, STUDY dah ke blum??!!"

maaf quality gmbar agak teruk. mohon maaf.
tapi pembalut hadiah n lapik meja tu kte tak tukar. malas. ^_^

tapi tunggu la pertengahan semester,
rupa meja mesti hodoh sungguh,
bila dah pertengahan semester, silalah datang bilik kte tgk sama ada lawa lagi tak. hahahaa~

Laptop is Part of My Life

hehehe~
Yesterday,
I spend most of my time sleeping 0_o
and reading the book that I borrowed at the library,

today,
the first thing I did is (besides doing my prayer)
I turned on the laptop.
hahaa~

but yesterday,
I've planned to start my study,
but we'll see what happens today.
hahahaa~
the good thing is, I already watch all the TV series.
so, I have nothing to watch.
but lately,
I have grown a new interest which is a secret I don't want to tell. ^_^
only my family member, amirah akmar, azrina and my roomate knows.

but I'm not planning to switch my career in the future. I guess.
hahahaa~

Lost My Ability

entah la,
sejak kebelakangan ni,
takde benda nk taip masuk jadi entry blog ni.
macam tak de benda dlm otak ni.
huhu~ adakah???!!!
hahahaa~

kenapa?!!
serius takde benda yg nk tulis.
kosong je otak ni,
huhuuu~

takde benda yg menarik.
class, mcm biasa,
kwn2 still sama,
UiTM pun sama je.
takde benda yg boleh dikongsi.

tapi kte tak nak blog ni tak di isi dgn entry.
nanti dia lapar. hahahaa~

0_o

last semester
new room
new roomate
same block
same faces

old me.

well,
speechless.

New Year

for me,
I can't remember what happen through out the year.
hehhee~
short memory.
if you guys nk tau. just read all my past entries. ^_^

tapi now is 2010.
then, last semester to go!!
huhu~

nk masuk UiTM balik.
tapi kenapa ramai balik hari sabtu??
huhu~ buat org cuak je.
so, kte balik ahad la mcm biasa. ^_^

hope that new year will bring more new hopes and adventures.