Diamond in me.

It was a short trip to 47th Floor,

Thank you so much! Best benor!

ini scenery dari atas! :)

ha. ok, cerita pasal jumpa dengan her supervisor,

tak payah sebut nama, nanti dia jumpa pulak blog ni.

her supervisor asks few questions, his questions was very easy. but difficult to answer. 

he asks about your add-value, the diamond in you.

I have that problem, I knew what is my potential, but when someone asks me at that moment, all of the sudden, I can't recall anything about the good thing about me! I have a lot to offer! that how confident I am. 

ok. what are my add-value from other student, I don't have working experience. During internship, I able to experienced a working life. A somewhat real working life. It was like I was expecting. 

I'm a very open minded person I would say. I don't mind on exploring new things, but not sales. haha. yes, I have my target for my career, so far, I want to achieve that. But I believe that along the way even I don't get the position I wanted for, all the path will actually gives benefits for me. 

I'm always in-time. I don't go to know late. I can't stand being late. I'll go crazy! and depressed. hahahaa. Even tasks given, I will not do last minute, I actually have done 85% of my report that needed to send on 18 Nov. haaaaaaa

I perform very well under pressure. This apply when I'm presenting for competition. I need to feel pressured to be able to present very well.

I respect people and I don't judge.

My motto of my life is, I'll do every thing at my best to avoid regrets.

What is your diamond in you?

Bila Sleepy

kadang-kadang bila mengantuk sangat dekat opis ni,
bawah meja ni pun nampak sangat comfy. 
Rasa macam nak tidur situ pun ada.

ha. kerja! kerja!
CLSA Securities, please take me as one of your employee! 

My Education Background

ok. harini cakap pasal education background.

start dari, 

TADIKA,

dah tak ingat dah nama tadika tu, tapi tadika tu dekat sangat dengan rumah. dalam 3 minit jalan mengensot pun sampai. LOL. tapi dulu pergi tadika naik bas. sebab ada kes dengan abang dan bas dan sekolah. hahaha. dari kecik memang tak pernah lambat or saje nak ponteng tadika. tapi pernah sekali abang bas tu lupa nak amek... dah lambat pergi sekolah, jalan kaki dengan orang gaji, nampak Teacher Ros, semua dah nak masuk kelas! menangis balik rumah! sebab dah lambat. haritu tak pergi sekolah. Esok Teacher Ros pun tanya. hahahahahaha!

SEKOLAH RENDAH BANDAR TUN RAZAK (1)

oh. sekolah rendah belajar banyak benda! selain main punya lah banyak! macam-macam benda main. tapi boleh tahan la nakal. ehehehe. maklumlah, pengawas. lagi-lagi abang dengan kakak pun pengawas siap pegang jawatan lagi! tapi tak silap saya ni dulu dekat sekolah bossy. tak ingat sangat dah. hehehe. 

SEKOLAH MENENGAH SERI BINTANG UTARA

dengan result tak berapa, semestinya tak pergi sekolah asrama penuh. dapat masuk sekolah ni pun tak silap guna kabel. fuh! sekolah ni sangat kelas kau jah! budak-budak sekolah tu dah reti buat presentation guna powerpoint, terer guna word buat assignment! aku terkial-kial. aku culture shock sampai form 5! hahahaha! jadi pendiam gila dan macam clueless aku buat ape dekat sini. sekolah ni majority cakap English fluent! dengan masing-masing dengan choral speaking inter-class! hahaha! ingat lagi form 1, kena marah dengan Lauren dia conductor waktu tu, sebab takde expression. lepas dari tu, baru tau ape fungsi cermin. hehehe. sejak dari tu, rajin cakap sorang-sorang depan cermin bahasa Inggeris. tapi tak cakap dengan orang. cakap dengan diri sendiri. sekolah tu.. unik.. and I should be proud to be able to get in. I have few friends for life dekat sini. Memang a whole new experience! and sekolah tu contribute a part of me now.

UNIVERSITI TEKNOLOGI MARA (UiTM), SEGAMAT, JOHOR
dengan result tak seberapa juga, unexpectedly, dapat masuk UiTM Johor. My parents macam gembira lah anak dia masuk Universiti. I was excited actually, even though tak pernah duduk asrama. Then, I start fresh there! dekat sini, saya belajar banyak benda pasal kehidupan. kita tak boleh asyik nak pikir pasal orang je, kte kene pikir pasal diri kita jugak. Macam biasa, ada la drama sana sini, tapi I managed, we managed. tapi dekat sini, I didn't join any activity, or taking any responsibility. Itu yang saya terlepas. Things that I should take advantage of. Oh! sini jumpa all those foods I like! hehehe. dah jadi favourite! pisang goreng dengan sambal kicap! and sini I met few great friends that changed my personality! Then I fall in love with the course that I've take! First time in my life I know what I wanted to do! 

UNIVERSITI TEKNOLOGI MARA (UiTM), SHAH ALAM, SELANGOR
Degree satu semester dekat sini, oh. sampai sekarang rasa sangat tak best kecuali circle of friends yang cool gila! the only thing yang buat I tak benci sangat duduk sana. the environment, terlampau bandar. hahaha. kelas 8 sampai 6. not bad la not bad. ada sweet memories dekat sana. :)

UNIVERSITI UTARA MALAYSIA (UUM), SINTOK, KEDAH
the moment masuk dalam UUM, deja-vu! oh my! I love this place so much! makanan sedap. ye sedap. environment hijau dan nyaman! baru first semester, dah tau ape benda yang akan rindu sangat-sangat dekat Sintok tu! and I joined a lot of activities here! I learned a lot here, learned a lot of life, about myself. wei! baru tau yang saya ni work better under pressure! give me pressure, I'll perform better! oh! kucing banyak dekat sini! jumpa kawan-kawan yang cool. kenal ramai orang. I love it here so much! tapi of course, ada disadvantage. salah satu.. education. UiTM better. tapi campus life, here is far more better compare to UiTM. ha. dah rasa, baru boleh cakap. hehee. Kak nisa pesan macam ni. heeee. 

setakat ni, disini sahaja. :)

he. bye!~

Jari

sebenarnya ada satu post dalam draft, tapi tak abes tulis lagi.

so tetiba nak update yang ni pulak. okeh. 

haaaaaa.

haritu ada berwassap dengan kawan sorang (oh. kawan yang sama) nih, cakap pasal manusia. dia cakap pasal jari.

hahahaha. ok la bukan jari. Menunding Jari.

this is a common thing, orang suka menunding jari, untuk benda yang mungkin kesalahan diri sendiri. Itu adalah benda yang paling annoying. tak payah nak salahkan semua benda atas kesalahan diri sendiri. cammon lah! semua orang buat salah. nobody is perfect la bro!

saya sedang berusaha sangat-sangat untuk tidak menunding jari diatas kesalahan saya sendiri. It's hard, I know. I grew up dengan family macam tu. yes, memang selalu saya selalu disalahkan. It affect a little on my confidence level. haaaa.... tapi tengah berusahalah ni. 

dulu ada workshop, bayang something that you really-really afraid of, and imagine on overcoming that you fear. the truth is, I cried tak boleh berhenti and that fear is still with me. Sebenarnya, I fear of someone, tapi when I think about it, the person that I really afraid of is not that someone...

so, think about it. Those yang ada habit ni, silalah berusaha untuk berubah.

Small little tiny fish.

I was chatting via Whatapps with a friend yesterday. and we were talking about the life. The next phase of life. What are we feeling and going through our mind. 

The first week of internship, I was the only intern for that particular department, I have no idea what I should feel. Then a fresh graduate came over as permanent, Then I start to feel. Feels like I'm a small little tiny winky fish, in a huge and deep ocean with all kinds of fishes. hahahaa! I have no idea why I'm using this metaphor. I'm not really into fish. hahaha! or sea. or water. or anything related.

So, I have no idea whether all fresh graduate like us, have the same feeling. 

A feeling that, you are nobody in the world, 

feels like you lack of everything in this point of time. 

A feeling that I should take advantage of everything all way before Diploma

I was in great high school and went in great university.

Then you will met all kinds of person.

all kinds of thing,

all kinds of stuffs.

but that makes your life unique and beautiful.

so, what did I do?

I ignore that feeling.

Feeling of doubt of myself.

I start to feel that I have something to offer to the world. but not now. later. I must have purpose! I am unique and weird in my own way. I have something to offer. but I have no idea yet. but soon!

ALL OF YOU SHOULD FEEL THE SAME WAY AT ONE POINT!

so, progress... 

I still have that awkward moment when a guy wanted to make conversation, 3 months and a week. hahaha! fills with awkward conversation, and usually I replies with a short answer and stare at my laptop. ok. Bank's laptop. bhahahahhaa!

What if

rasanya ada pernah tulis title ni. 

aaaahhhh! bior!

what if all those positive thinking actually a way for us to run away from the reality?

some people afraid to have those positive thinking. why? because they would so afraid to be disappointed on what they hope it to be. 

me? I hope, hope and pray so hard on a lot of stuffs. I get disappointed so many times. I already get used to it. I've cried. I've wanted it so bad. but yeah, every happened for a reason. Something else will come in your way. 

but I won't give up hoping and doing everything the best. of course, with hope and hard work. you have to work something before you wanted things. 

Happy Wednesday! :D