It's amazing

It's been very busy week and a lot of funny stuffs happened :D LOL!!!!

so, busy dengan mid-term, busy dengan assignment dengan presentation pulak, busy dengan Aktiviti under DPP sampai satu hari boleh clash dengan banyak betul benda kena handle.... tapi exam diutamakan :)

Ada cerita nak diceritakan disini, ada masa tu memang rasa terpaksa join sebab dah terima mula-mula. ada lah stress sana sini sampai tumbuh jerawat yang sangat obesiti! yang kte terpaksa pakai spec sebab nak sorokkan jerawat yang sgt besar! *ok, jerawat tu takde kene mengena pun*

but it's amazing when I've been living for 22 years and now I learned a lot of things about myself. memang sebenarnya nak tarik diri tapi bila dah pikirkan orang lain kita pun tak boleh nak jual ikan sangat, so go on je la penat macam mane pun. tapi betul, setiap perkara yang kita buat, kalau kte nampak dan boleh berfikir semua perkara ada hikmah dan boleh amik ikhtibar dari situ. :)

apa yang kita dapat tahu tentang diri sendiri?

"Saya adalah seorang yang tolak tanggungjawab apabila diberikan"

ye. itu adalah salah satu masalah saya. saya boleh bagi komitment. tapi tak boleh nak sukarela nak terima sesuatu tanggungjawab.

memang rasa macam getting out from the comfort zone tu macam mudah. tapi once dah jadi macam ni. bila diberi tugas yang bukan kebiasaan, kita jadi ragu-ragu tentang kebolehan kita sendiri.

korang mesti bosan baca takde gambar. :)
oh internet teruk lah.
next entry je la :)

Lama

dah lama sudah tak update blog. patutnya ada gambar. tapi takde sebab rasanya ini adalah luahan hati.

AMARAN: kalau korang malas nak baca tak payah baca. tak penting pun.


tapi ni lah! merepek betul korang! merepek! sakit hati pun ada. nak quit rasa macam dah join 80% takkan nak lepaskan macam tu je. jangan merepek lah weyh! urgh! sakit hati lah! tak payah boleh tak payah!

usually I'm not like this. but when it comes like this........ urgh! annoying gila!

Never say never.

hahahaa.. not a fan of JB.

but, I've haven't felt like this before. I don't want to go back to the jungle. I do love it there, but there is a program that I felt hate and don't want to participate. that particular! but as I'm doing this semester is forcing myself to learn from that how hard how ugly it might turn I want myself to see the positive side from that ugly thing.

Training myself to see positive things in every situation and activity. Less nagging and less complaining. Putting myself in others shoe and seeing in other people perspective. Yes. I'm like that.

So, now how eagerly I don't want to get back. I have to. I'm forcing myself to face the hardship and stress. Hope that I can get this through easily. Amin~ Help me please.

oh! no updates because I'm back home. soon enough there will be updates! :D
and of course pictures! :D

You

oh. memang dah balik rumah. dah banyak gambar upload dekat Fb. :)

lama memang lama. tapi best! :D

something that I should say (which I'll forget about what this about).

I'm giving up on you. 

Basically there's a tons of people that I'm giving up on. If I'm changing my attitude towards you, that's mean that  person is you.

Asyik Complain

Tadi pun terfikir, saya ni asyik complain pasal Aktiviti yang mintak kaki.

tapi kte tak terfikir, kalau kita dalam tempat dia, 
adakah saya boleh buat lebih baik? 
atau sama je teruk.

tapi macam diaorg tak pernah berada dalam situasi kita?
diaorg tak terfikir ke?

bilakah saya akan bersedia?
hmmm... bila? bila?

For you

STEREOTYPE OUT THERE!

hahaha. ini post emosi. hahahaha!

here for those stereotype out there. You guys kinda indirectly hurt my confidence and self-esteem. Thank you very much. Please stop being stereotype! 

I felt so unaccomplished this semester. I've achieved nothing! nothing! urgh! depressed pulak. I'm still awkward around strangers. why?! oh why? I'm still that timid girl who just wait for someone to talk to me first. and I still have nothing to talk about. I'm not like this around my friends. =.='''

Afiqah you are so lame and so so so so so so so regretful! why oh why?! you go take all those opportunities but you didn't even try! maybe there is something wrong with me! (T__T)

oh please help me. oh please send someone could help me get through this. help please. need serious help. help. help.

oh! maybe I'm not doing things from heart. MAYBE! that is my problem! then this is internal. but still I need help.  send some pleaseeeeeee.. hahahahhaa~

This week

Tinggal minggu-minggu akhir nak cuti ni, memang banyak betul cerita panas! Stress sem ni bukan main. Asyik nak mengamuk je. Kesian gak ngan kawan-kawan yang rapat nak dengar kita membebel. hahahahaa~ 

I can't help it. :P

Ada banyak cerita, tapi rasa tak perlu bubuh dekat sini.

Tapi aku nak habaq kat hangpa. Kalau tak boleh, cakap terus terang lah bro! tak payah nak sembang kuat! memang tak beretika. Lagi-lagi kau melibatkan orang lain. memang nak kena lah.

tak sabar nak balik rumah nak cerita semua benda dekat mama. :P
banyak benda menarik nak cakap. eh! ada banyak benda tak settle lagi.

bye bye!
*dah fiqah sila pergi jauh dari laptop ni.*
bye! bye! bye~ bye!!! :DDD

Greed

I'm a person who wants more and more just to challenge myself and getting out of the comfort zone.

so here i want to say, now I'm getting all the opportunities. but I'm afraid it just a test from God that I'll be greedy and take all of them.

Probably i should take those I'm capable of doing. currently, I'm committed on every task. but now, I don't want to over load with too much activities and I think I made the right moves.

I want to learn and learn not to get all the positions. I don't think I should either. but every time the opportunities came, I do felt that; "that is a good start for me to learn" when Han Ming mentioned about; position is not everything. makes me think and think again and I think I should learn from the bottom and learn as much as I can, so that I'll understand more.

Then I could learn to be a leader, team mate, subordinate and a family :D

So far, I've been lead by great sense of leadership :D
I should learn from KD.

and what I should improves are; to mingle with strangers and be noticeable in a huge group.

but I always have this perspective; I don't need to shine like a star, but I just need to put my heart on it and people would see me as a star.

What do you think?