I'm BIG

but yet I feel soooo small.

Every time you open your mouth, I felt like you are criticizing me.

Everything I've done is wrong.

At times, I felt like I'm the stupidest person on the earth.

I felt like I'm an alien lost in earth.

maybe I get what I should have. That what goes around comes around.

Last semester, I accidentally done that to few of my friends.

So, that's why I'm getting back what I've deserved.

ok! that makes perfect sense.

Now, I'm thinking!! heheheehee~

Happy Again!

Please?????!!!!!

seriously,

please stop talking!

I can't even stand to hear your voice.

tau tak kte tak penah sampai menyampah dgr suara org tau!!

ini mungkin sbb pendam lama sgt.

terganggu gile.

even dgr suara kau!

even kau ckp dgn org lain pun.

kenapa?!!!!!!!!

Well, honestly, I don't have the sixth sense on the first impression.

but, yeah. I'm lessen my judging on others.

tapi kenapa?!!! kenapa??!!!

mungkin tension about finals la kot.

tapi mmg aku tak tahan dgr suara kau!

aku tak suka bila kau gelakkan aku sedangkan tak klakar!

aku tak suka bila kau cerita kat aku benda yg merepek dan secara moral nya adalah salah.

aku tak suka bila kau merenggek mcm budak kecik sentiasa.

aku tak suka bila kau bajet 2010 je lebih. sedangkan deficit! (??huh??)

aku tak suka kau makin hari makin tak suka.

sedang sabar menunggu dan sabar dekat kau!

The Reasons

ok, update tu baru je. masih fresh ok!

heheee~

reasons why I wrote "MY own Jensen Ackles"

ok, tau² no one owns anyone.

It's true when people say is nice to fall in love.

Been there done that.

there is a time that I don't want any guy.

There is a time where I feel like I want one. *women are like waves* =)

Jadi, I want my own version of JENSEN ACKLES.

ok, bukannya jumpa dia real person pun. pastu kang bila dah jumpa nanti kang tau yg dia mmg lah tak perfect langsung maybe loser. hehee~ (eh! berani kau ckp mcm tu?!!)

tapi my view own Jensen Ackles are...

First; every time I'm sad or down. when I looked at his smiling pictures. I smiled instantly!!

dia punye smile is very contagious OK =)

So, my version is a guy that can me smile and laugh when I'm down. He can cheer me up.

Second; seperti yg anda tau. Jensen Ackles adalah seorg hottie! hehehe~

ok. tak nak hottie. nak yg that makes me safe. (mmg la Jensen Ackles berlakon je mcm hero).

but I want someone that makes me feel safe and he makes all the decisions. hahahahaaa!!!

Third; Jensen Ackles boleh main guitar and sing!

and jugak rasa when a guy played a guitar and sing for you and a self-written song for me, depan org ramai!

sekali je pun jadilah.. hahahaaa~

Fourth; he is good with kids! hahahaaaa~

ok2. I'm not good with kids langsung! especially babies. sangat tak suka.

If ada org nk suruh dukung baby ke ape. "Sorry I'm not the person"

I'm not the person yg pegi kat bdk²  kata; "eh!!! COMELLNYA!!!"

tapi, I like see guys that good with kids. heheheee~ rasa mcm dia tu sgt warm. hehehee~

ada ke reason lagi?

I know that Jensen Ackles is not real but I want to him stay imaginations.

He gives me hope. ke?????

ps:owh, strangers are not allowed at my FB. =D

I Wuv Hugs

EVERY TIME I see/saw JENSEN ACKLES I go CRAZY!!!! ahahahaaaa~ XD

Words for Myself

I don't know, maybe its the final year heat or final exam heat.

now, I'm trying to build myself.

I actually don't know what kind of person I am.

but for sure, I'm positively thinking person.

When I looked back, 

I wasn't the same person as before.

so, now I'm struggling with personalities conflicts.

what I want to be, what I will be, What I want, What I don't want?

All is the questions that can't be answered now and no one can tell you the answer.

in the short term period,

I want to be better everyday.

I want to improve in every ways.

One of my friend update her status not to compare yourself to others.

I have to disagree on that.

We have to. The benchmarks will get higher and higher.

and by using that way, you'll see and develop your own skill and confident on your ability.

but the road are not smooth, it's bumpy.

all you need to do is believe in God, in yourself.

but what I'm afraid is (which I often say this to myself)

when you get up so high, you'll forget who you are.

and at that point you'll fall and tumble badly

and you'll just stop believe in anything.

I'm actually posting this for myself. 

a friendly reminder myself and any readers that need this.

I have a lot of words in my head,

but I can't pour it into words.

it's all caught up in the head! damn it!

start believe that there will be better lives and adventures ahead of you!

(that's what I'm currently thinks and believes.)

Happy Studying!

ok, smlm mmg best!

jadi hari ni patutnya nak bngun pagi study

sbb tido pukul 10mlm...

tapi sbbkn Segamat sejuk.

smbung tdo smpi pukul 7.30pagi. 

hurm.

study ye rakan²!

about power that I'm having.

I'll let go the responsibility.

It wasn't important and waste of my time and feelings.

so, I'll let go.

I need to tell you that I am moving on.

Just you didn't see it. I already moved on a long time ago.

So, JGN PERASAN!

Home

ok, hari rabu yg sampai rumah,

tapi malas gila nk buat apa².

first excited nak balik sbb nk dwld SUPERNATURAL!

lepas tu, dlm beberapa jam. dia dah abes dwld,

tapi tak nk tgk lagi sbb konon² nanti nk tgk kat cmpus.

semua org sibuk ber-FB,

tapi kte agak malas nk layan FB cuma sibuk main game kat FB je.

entah kenapa.

nak main DDR skrg,

tapi baru abes makan.

jadi dah tak tau nk buat ape. hehehee~

jadi update blog (secara terpaksa).

esok dah balik Segamat balik.

ahad baru start study utk final!!!

cuak jugak ni fikir pasal final. (T_T)

semalam pukul 8 pagi dikejutkan dgn construction rumah depan ni.0_0

pastu dlm tengahari kluar dgn kakak.

pastu mlm pegi Tesco beli barang. 

nak bwk balik campus.

mlm tu malas nk buat ape². 

pastu tdo.

pagi bangun, online main game.

pastu brunch la. hahahaa~

nak main DDR smpi kaki sakit.

tapi. kenyang lagi. takkn nak lompat².

kang termuntah kang. ^_^

jadi update blog.

Perjalanan Sebuah Report.

ia bermula bila siap diprint oleh "Ip Ip si comel" pada pukul 8.15mlm bertarikh 11 April 2010.

pada pukul 10.30mlm, Report tersebut dilawat oleh "Totor si Busuk"...

selepas lepak2 borak2 dengan Totor, Report pun masuk tido..

ini gmbr dia tdo atas katil =)

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kemudiannya, start hari yg baru...

dihantar kepada pakcik yg sgt pakar dlm bidang binding² yg sgt lawa.

dalam masa menunggu, ada seorg budak lapar. dia rasa mcm nak makan pak cik tu.

tapi dihalang oleh pintu kaca ajaib kepunyaan pakcik tersebut *eh jap. kenapa dah merapu smpai mcm ni?*

setelah dibind oleh pakcik pakar, nak hantar pada lecturer, tapi lecturer takde pulak kat bilik =(

jadi lepak kat library jap...

sementara azrina study bond, saya study buku "food". =d

Report jumpa dgn kwn dia yg sbenarnya lagi tebal dari dia. =P

 

berada di meja sebelah Report, ada ummul yg ganas dan khai yg stress tgh study bond.

tak lama lepas tu, Lecturer kesayangan hantar mesej yg dah ada kat bilik.

masa utk melepaskan Report.

 

Lecturer group member yg sporting

Jaga dia baik²!

Lepas tu. lega....

 

inilah rupa lega. =D

Kanak-Kanak Riang

memories of diploma that I would definitely want to remember. ^_^

Luahan Perasaan

dengan internet yg lembab ni,
tak mampu nak upload apa2 gambar,

tapi aku dah tak tahan dah dgn engkau,
asyik kuar statement panas aje.
nak menggelegak dah aku ni..
start dari first day aku jumpa kau.
ayat kau tu akan aku sentiasa ingt.

aku tak tau lah kau ni mmg lurus bendul ke.
lurus pembaris ke.
tapi sbbkan mulut badan binasa.
mungkin kau tak tau peribahasa tu sbb kau bdk class sains.

eh, aku memang dah tak tahan dgn kau lah!!

ok, ini cerita lain,

aku pulak dah meluat, muak, mual, malas dengan kau.

dgn kau punya perangai,

dgn memerlukan attention yg melampau byk sedangkan kau dah ada banyak dah!

eh, kau ingt lawak ke?

kteorg terasa ok!

kau pulak bukan lurus bendul,

kau mcm jalan nak pegi kuala pilah tu. (bukit putus, benci tul pegi sekola akk n adik aku tu. pening tau tak pening!)

tak pun mcm cicak dlm bilik aku ni! *ok, takde kene mengena*

ok, dgn officialnya. lepas dah publish.

selepas beberapa jam / hari/ minggu/ bulan.

aku dah lupa ckp pasal sape kat post ni!

hahahahaa~ paling lama ingt sebulan lah.

lepas tu mmg tak ingt dah. *Insyaallah*

saya mempunyai very limited capacity nak simpan dlm otak ni.

=)

Entry Lagi?

smlm dah update, hari ni update lagi?

eh, fiqa, dah takde keje ke? tgk la list kau tu. ada ke ramai bdk update?

nampk sgt kau suka ddk depan laptop smbil online FB dan main game!

esok ada test p.finance,

studynye baru sket aje. 

nak kongsi satu benda,

bagi pengguna FB, yg main Pet Society,

skrg Pet Society sudah 3D!!!

jap. tunggu jap. nak capture screen nak tunjuk.

 ini adalah gmbrnya.nampk tak kat bwh tu. 3D!!

comelkan xiong xiong saya? hehehe~

jadi dia akan load.

 begini rupa dia.

jadi sekrg, pet society anda akan menjadi 3D!

Tahniah.

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Skrg hobi, suka membaca buku.

utk menjadi human lie dectector.

inilah impian saya!! muahahahaaa~

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dah lama tak balik rumah,

dari mid term break hari tu,

bukan lah rindu sgt pun.

tapi entah, kwn2 sume balik rumah je keje. (ada sapa2 terasa ke? =D)

tapi nak tgk kucing gile yg nama "Megat" tu.

nak duduk goyang2 kaki, nak timbang berat,

nak makan dan tgk TV dgn dwld cerita byk2!!

tapi entah lah. mcm susah je nak balik nih.

minggu ni confirm lah tak boleh balik; 

ngn VIVA dan test minggu seterusnya.

lepas itu, ada pulak modul tuk part 6.

tp mungkin balik the last week b4 exam tu.

tgklah mcm mane.

eh, fiqa, dah lah. pegi study. cepat!

akhirnya dia jadi mcm begini pula!! hahahaa XD