I figured something.
It's about I see failures around me. That makes me afraid.
But someone did make me see that maybe they are not the happiest around but they survived. I do want to believe in them.
but you know, the risk I'm taking. There will never be 100% sure.
Letting the time and God to make it happen. Before that, I'll just have to be patiently wait and see and feel whatever that I should feel.
and put my best effort in it as I always do in everything.
sometimes I just don't understand myself. I even don't believe that this happened. :D